Where is Paradise

My ideal of Paradise is a place so beautiful that you feel like never leaving it. Paradise would be a place you would share with the one you love. Sometimes Paradise is right there before you and you don't recongnize it. Paradise could be laying in your lovers arms, not saying a word and knowing that you love each other...Ohhhh how I wish I could be in Paradise.........


Somedays I wish the day would end quickly or perhaps even a week. Today is one of those days...I am feeling really blue about my life, things have just got the best of me right now. My attitude should be "Put Your Big Girl panties on and deal with it!" but I just can't seem to shake the blues.

I stop to think why...there is so many things that I know of and I don't know how to change them to make it better.

I reflect.....and my thoughts go too...I am deeply sadden in the lack of affection in my relationship, I feel needy and insecure, the frustration built up from not knowing where to turn next or what to say or do without pissing Dennis off he is anrgy with me 80% of the time now, the feeling that my relationship with Dennis has turned toxic makes me scared...he hates me being around him...the way I breath... how I chew my food...my smoking...my voice annoys him...the way I move in bed to get comfortable...the fact I have problems sleeping at night...the way I drive makes him mad...how I close the door on his truck...the subjects I talk about...me being on the computer...how I leave newspaper in the bathroom...how I am senstive...the list goes on and on. I feel the lack of respect people in my life have for me, hurt that no one wants to know anything about me or the things that interest me, I hate being the one they put down thinking that they are being funny, I hate the way I look right now with all this extra weight on, my hearing, my speech, my aches and pains from my shoulders to my toes, the feeling that I don't belong any where or have a place to call home, worrying about not being able to attend the spreading of my mothers ashes, and not being able to get a good sleep hanging on the edge of the bed since Dennis started to get mad in bed if I touched him.

OK so I am having a pity party all by myself! ISN'T THAT THE BEST WAY. I thought so because who cares anyways

New York City Adventure

On September 13 at 4:30 am Dennis and myself board a bus in a soccer field in the town of Port Dover. The bus had 50 passengers all heading for a weekend to New York, NY. The adventure started early but we were all on board and ready to go. We reached the USA boarder about 6:30am and were the first bus to arrive for the day, we were assigned bus number 1. After grabbing breakfast and going through the process of getting clearance we were on our way again. There were a few stops along the way for quick meals, power smoking and washroom relief.

We arrived to our hotel in New Jersey just across the river from Manhattan Island about 3:30pm and checked in. We were all instructed to be back down to the bus for our first adventure into the city at 5:30pm. Off we all went. The bus drove through Lincoln Tunnel which was 2 miles long under the Hudson River towards our first view of the city.

They took us to 42nd Street to the Empire State Building. This is where Macy's Department store is located. We all ventured around for a bit till it was our scheduled time to go up the tower.

Eight o'clock hit and we all met back at Empire State building and begin the climb up to see the full view of the city. The first observation deck is on the 80 something floor. The view from up there was amazing I was in awwwwwww with the size of the city and all its towers. After we all reloaded on the bus they drove us through Time Square at night. All the lights flashing and the crowds in this area is overwhelming.

We covered allot of area in a weekend, ohhh not to mention did allot of window shopping. I must tell you hidden in the back streets of New York is purse heaven. I must tell you the purse story. Our guide Lee took us to Canal Street where there is allot of shopping. This is where China Town and Little Italy are located as well. The bus stopped and we all started to get off. I got ahead of Dennis so when I stepped off I went to the side to wait for him. I no more then a minute a Chinese lady started flashing pictures at me of designer purses and she kept repeating purses you want purses. I nodded my head yes and commanded "Come come" while waving her hands in her directions. I told her I had to wait for more people at that moment Dennis, Nick and Sherry stepped off the bus and I wave to them. In about one second flat she was right over to Sherry showing her the same pictures and asking her if she wanted to come and get purses. Sherry looked over at me and we both nodded at the same time YES! The Chinese lady was speaking on a walkies talkie to someone telling them that she had four people and started to guide us where they were. I had this small shop visioned in my mind but to my surprise she was leading us down an alley and into the back door of a restaurant. Once we were into the building and the door was shut she lead us down two floors into the basement of the building. She checked that all doors were shut and no one else was following us. Once she knew all was clear she opened this secret door to a room of purses. We all stepped in and she quickly closed the door behind us. You wouldn't believe all the designer purses (knock offs) that were in the room. Sherry and myself were almost giddy and smiling ear to ear. Well after almost forty five minutes in this purse room I walked away with three of them, Sherry got two. The Chinese lady took us back out side and pointed to the direction we need to get back and we were off again.

Next posting I will tell more about this adventure. Just in case I don't get back soon we are off for our next adventure October 21 to Las Vegas, Nevada

The New York Trip

New York City...what a blast!

Interesting Tid Bits

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CNE

Dennis and I went to the CNE yesterday. It had been a long time for both of us. A funny thing happened as we were coming back from Ontario Place after watching a bit of the airshow. We ran into Carla, Sandy and Kevin, friends from Dundas. The chances of that happening...if we had made arrangements or knew that we would all be there the same day, we would of never found each other in the sea of people. I think that is kind of neat.

I still find the CNE a fun place to visit, but this is the first time I did it buildings in fast forward speed. Let me explain, the crafts and merchandise don't interest Dennis at all so I litterly had to run to keep up to him as he went through each building. If I recall right the only buildings we actually stopped and look for a bit were the food and horse buildings. But the best thing of all was being on top of the Ontario Place building with the jets flying by and doing their stunts in clear view. The roar of the engines send trills through my body. Now I understand my fathers attraction to the planes.

Well one and a half weeks before we head to New York city for the weekend......and Las Vegas is booked for the end of October. I am looking forward to the trips.